Obese and Pregnant

Sunday morning I woke up extra early. I was hosting my little sister's birthday party that afternoon at my house and wanted to make sure everything was in order. I grabbed a bowl of cereal and sat down to watch a little tv and caught a show called Obese and Pregnant. It's a little scary to admit this, but by health standards I am overweight. I would even go as far as to say, obese. But I don't FEEL obese. My weight have been a constant struggle, which you can read about here. My desire to have a baby right now is constantly struggling with my desire to lose weight before I do so. I would LOVE to be at a healthier weight before I start having babies, but after learning how NOT easy having a baby is going to be for us, I really don't want to put it off any longer. You would think with this going for over a year now, I would have done what was needed to shred some pounds, but that's just not the case. Although the last couple of weeks have felt like a bit of a page turner.

Anyway, I basically forced myself to watch this show that followed 3 obese women during their pregnancies. All 3 women were 300+ lbs. Two of the women obtained gestational diabetes and had to take daily injections to help maintain their blood sugar level. It was so eye opening. Not only is that something I don't EVER have to go through, they all 3 just looked miserable, MISERABLE, during their pregnancies. And I don't want that for myself, my baby or my husband. I'm not 300 lbs, but I am FAR from where I need to do to be.

The show freaked me out so bad, that I wasn't even sad when I started spotting yesterday. I immediately thought to myself, "WHEW, another month to try and lose some weight,". Kinda scary.