Phobias

I have this phobia of needles. Ever since I was little, any time I knew a shot was coming, the water works would start a pouring! The anticipation was always way worse than the actual shot itself, but to this day, I still HATE them. Even when I just have to get my blood drawn, I dread it. I do everything I can to remember I'm a BIG GIRL now and I can handle it.

So naturally, during this whole trying to make a baby process, I have been dreading the IVF step, because of all the injections I've heard about. Well the first week of injections has been pretty simple honestly. There is still that 5 seconds a pure fear before I jab the needle into my leg, but at least the sucker goes in. Yesterday, I started my 2nd injection in the evening. This one I've done before, but it has been about 2 months, so I did what I did last time and watched an instructional video via youtube about a million times, had my mini freak out session and shoved that shit in there. Again, not as bad as I was thinking, but it still makes a owwie.

I go back in on Friday for blood work and a check-in. Things seems to be progressing quickly now, after about a 2 month stand still. I've been avoiding The Bump, cause honestly going in blind has been a little better on the nerves than doing the overly researched thing. I just don't want to put any ideas into my head that I could possibly cling to.

All and all, the phobia is still there, but much I'm handling it much better. Or at least I think I am. My thighs look like my husband secretly beats me where no one can see. :) Thank God I don't plan on wearing any Daisy Dukes any time soon!!!!!

Update you guys on Friday!