Smurfing

In full disclosure, this will be a TMI post. If you aren't really into hearing the nitty gritty of infertility treatment, I would probably bypass this post.

Last Tuesday, the 13th, I went in for my lining check for this upcoming transfer. Obviously there are a ton of things in the fertility world that I don't do well, medically speaking, but one thing I have always been good at is producing a beautiful thick lining. I've actually been complimented on the thickness of my lining by my Dr. Hahah, you have to cling to the good things. But on Tuesday my lining wasn't measuring where it should have been. For this current transfer the meds look like this, Estradiol (little blue pill) three times a day, orally and then Crinone twice a day vaginally. Sorry for having to write the word vaginally. After my appt, my Dr. decided to change my Estradiol to vaginally in the morning and evening. I assumed I would get something similar to the Crinone, which has a handy dandy applicator, but I was quickly disappointed. After a little clarification, I was informed I would be shoving the little blue pill I've been taking orally into my hoo-ha until further instructed! WHAAAAAAT!!!!!!! You know there have been several instances in this process that have sent my head spinning. The fact that Vance and I really aren't making a baby in the "natural" sense of the term, the injections and the realization that our future Ackers are literally chillin' in a freezer somewhere off Mopac. But for some reason, the act of pill poppin' in my VAG, just doesn't bring warm fuzzies flooding my heart.

The silver lining here is that after the couple days of blue pill poppin', my lining is back up to speed. That was Friday. Unfortunately, I will have to stay the course on the meds until told other wise, but at the end of the day, at least it was worth it. (Said with inflection.) I have since coined this action, Smurfing.

We are awaiting our scheduling call for arrival time on Wednesday. So far I've been pretty even keel about this transfer. I have found myself thinking about it a little more and more as we get closer to transfer day. So I've been praying a little harder for my nerves and mind to be calmed down a little and just reminding myself that all the worry is unnecessary. Whether I worry a little or worry a lot, it won't change the outcome, so why even bother worrying at all. :) Easier said than done, but it's what I am working through.

In other news, I passed my Tier 1 test this weekend in my boxing class. For those of you who are new, I talked about Pink Gloves Boxing in this post. You can read more about the program here. It was so fun and I got to see the other Tiers, 2 and 3, test as well. It was good to see what's to come. I also was given an award for being an inspiring member of my class, how cool is that! I think the best part of getting that award is realizing that I am now responsible for pushing myself to stay positive and keep going when I don't want to, because I know that people look to me for that inspiration. What an awesome motivator that is!!!!

In other, other news, we head to the lake house this upcoming weekend for Vance's family reunion. I will be making a tons of treats to share, maybe I'll share a few yumminess with you this week!

Hope everyone had a great weekend.

Bye for now!